1.Projection
Self-insecurity
Social loathing
Despising the way i feel
Everything's a dream
And nothing is real
If I understood your past
If you would share more with me
If you admitted you were happy
If I told you that you make me complete
If you could get past being freaked
If only
If any
If something
If nothing
If
2.The Wrong Way
Don't take this the wrong way
But you will never get
The satisfaction you desire
This is not a punishment
It's just a simple fact
When you try to find your happiness
In someone who can't give it back
You'll get burned
And after one time
Most would just say lesson learned
But you keep
Holding on
Hope you'll break him down
But you're the one who's breaking now
Don't be so naive
Don't be so naive
It was only a dream
How could you ever believe
It was real
Do you still believe in fairy tales, too
Oh but don't take this the wrong way
I'm not trying to put you down
You've been doing that well on your own
Living by the modern martyr's philosophy
If you can't get love, get sympathy yeah
Honestly, do you really need
Somebody to put you on your knees
You can take the fall
But you're afraid to walk again
Or will you break if you bend
Don't be so naive
Don't be so naive
It was only a dream
How could you ever believe it
Don't be so naive
Don't be so naive
It was just make-believe
Stop deceiving yourself
And grow up, grow up
I am not impossible
And you are not a dream
Nothing can compare
To getting high on self-esteem
Maybe I'll be your regret
But you will not be my mistake
You are just a lesson
I refuse to learn until I
Break
Walk away, walk away, walk away
3.Stain
Crowd around the city streets
Lonely passersby
Broken sidewalk
Faded chalk outline
Falling
Fell into the past
Forever to be forgotten
Flash
A memory
A stain is all that's left of me
Somewhere
Maybe someday
The movie in your mind will replay
You will want me
You will long for my kiss
What you'll get isn't this
You'll get a memory, only
Cleanse the soul from tragedy
A vision so surreal
Search your mind for an answer
Never to be revealed
Screaming
To reason with
A soul which bleeds rejection
Flash
A memory
A stain is all that's left of me
Somewhere
Maybe someday
The movie in your mind will replay
You will want me
You will long for my kiss
What you'll get isn't this
You'll get a memory, only
And as I leave you in disarray
Forever in the hand of fate
The memory of me will never fade
The streets you love remind you of the pain
Broken sidewalk
A stain is all that's left
A stain is all that's left
4.Walls
Turn off everything
Turn out the light
Turn off my thoughts for once
Who needs this life
Can't speak
Can't hear
Only the hurt is crystal clear
Need you
Don't hide
When you're near me all is fine
Face in my hands again
These walls
My only friend
Face in my hands again
For all time
Silent room
The light is out
My thoughts are gusts of wind
I'm full of doubt
Don't care, don't know
My only love who doesn't show
And this is why
All I ever do these days is cry
Where are you
Why won't you call
Since you've gone
I talk to the wall
Face in my hands again
These walls
My only friend
Face in my hands again
For all time
5.Silhouette
Covering
Cowering
In the corner
Of this room
Unnerved
Reserved
Deserving
This solitude
Wasting
Tasting
Rejection
Once again
Trying
To stop crying
I knew
It would end
I don't wanna try anymore
To be noticed
If it all ends the same way
Why even bother trying
You're the last one who will hurt me
I won't forget
I'll disappear into the background
I'll become a silhouette
Giving up and giving in
Is there any other way
Losing hope
Losing you
I'll lose it all someday
Someday, someday
Maybe this is not so bad
Being alone
Staring at the walls for hours
Disconnect the telephone
But you don't cross my mind at all
I'm alright
Inscribe these words into my head
Every night
What a lie
Giving up and giving in
Is there any other way
Losing hope, losing you
I'll lose it all someday
I can't explain it to you
My heart is open like a book
Why won't you take a look
I feel like a fool
A shadow in the midst
Which you won't even miss
I don't want to try anymore to be seen
I'm invisible anyway
I'm nobody's dream
You're the last one who will kiss me
I can't forget
I've disappeared into the distance
I've become a silhouette
I've disappeared
Into the distance
I've disappeared
Into the distance
I've disapp.
6.Whirlwind
They're coming around
The words you've sent
No changing your mind
It's your only regret
To live is to face your darkest fears
Running away is what keeps you here
It's because
Of your lies
I begin
To find my way
Only now
Do I see
In the distance
Denial highway
When I'm away
You'll be lost
In a whirlwind hate
All the problems
You create
Can't you see
It's just dead weight
When I'm away
When I'm away
Don't try, don't try, don't try ...
You've wasted away
The time you've spent
Judging with jealous eyes
You can't forget
You welcome the pain
And live with fear
As dreams begin to blur
Stagnance appears
It's because
Of your lies
I begin
To find my way
Only now
Do I see
In the distance
Denial highway
When I'm away
You'll be lost
In a whirlwind hate
All the problems
You create
Can't you see
It's just dead weight
When I'm away
When I'm away
When I'm away
When I'm away
When I'm away
7.City
Memories
Are fading
You were once mine
Never unkind
A long sigh
A soft caress
Now a slience
An emptiness
I'm alone
Staring through
The past I knew
I miss you
Streets are empty
Space surrounding
Sighs soft lullabies
Blurred reflection
A passing perfection
Scarring deep inside
Need a place to hide
From the rain
The cold breeze
Brings you back to me
I smell you in the air
I'm broken beyond repair
Patience
In short supply
I can't replace you
I wouldn't want to try
I'm alone and maybe
It's what should be
Do you miss me
Isolation will repeat
I feel so incomplete
Streets are empty
Space surrounding
Sighs soft lullabies
Blurred reflection
A passing perfection
Scarring deep inside
Need a place to hide from the rain
Streets are empty
Filled with millions
Cold, with empty souls
Searching everywhere
Nothing's ever there
The night inside me grows
I disappear below
Floating higher and higher
A wonderful feeling
Everything around me became suddenly
Unreal
As if in a dream
Streets are empty
Space surrounding
Sighs soft lullabies
Blurred reflection
A passing perfection
Scarring deep inside
Need a place to hide from the rain
Streets are empty
Filled with millions
Cold, with empty souls
Searching everywhere
Nothing's ever there
The night inside me grows
I disappear below
8.Faded
I'm waiting for you under blue christmas lights
Trimmed the wick and lit the candle, scent you've always liked
Seems like i watch the clock each hour
Only two minutes pass
And when you finally make it, I know
Our time won't last
So I wait
Wait
Wait
For the next time
I've been thinking so much about
Our last conversation
Even though I sounded mad
You've always brought me elation
I never meant to stale the air
To cloud our communication
Something about the tone of your voice
Left my heart an abrasion
So I wait for you
So I wait for you
So I'll wait forever
Enslaved me
And trapped me in this lethal cell
Enslaved me
I can't breathe
The lies that you tell
Enslaved me
And trapped me in this lethal cell
Enslaved me
I can't breathe
The lies that you tell
Whatever hope was left has faded now
By your cruel intentions
Now the candle's gone and I'm still here
I'm still here
Enslaved me
And trapped me in this lethal cell
Enslaved me
I can't breathe
The lies that you tell
Enslaved me
I can't breathe
This lethal cell
Enslaved me
I can't breathe
The lies that you tell
9.Falling
Sometimes I feel like
Poetic words are just a waste of lines
And never sung for me
Sometimes I feel like
Poetic words are made to hide behind
This dim reality
I feel
Like the world is against me
Every time I
Look to the sky I
Feel so lost
And I don't know
Where I'm meant to go
Can't someone give me a clue
Show me the road that leads to you, oh
Sometimes I feel like
Poetic words are just a waste of lines
And never sung for me
Sometimes I feel like
Poetic words are made to hide behind
This dim reality
And I don't know
Where I'm meant to go
Won't someone give me a clue
Show me the road that leads to you
Sometimes I feel like
Poetic words are just a waste of lines
And never sung for me
Sometimes I feel like
Poetic words are made to hide behind
This dim reality
10.Moments like these
I swim
With the sharks
Playing in salt water
It's cold and always dark
I am
All alone
To live life on terms to call my own
One day
I went too far
Swam in shark-finned waters
In their net I was caught
They stared at me so cold
Their lives without meaning
Their minds never grow
You'd say I ran away
While you stayed to play
With facades in shallow graves
This is not my scene
It's your thing
To be the life of every moment
While I live inside my dreams
Moments like these
Revealing the true me
Moments like these
Seeing so clearly
I hide with the ghost
Playing in the darkness
It's what i love the most
I am all alone
Enjoying the silence
Enjoying my home
You'd say I ran away
While you stayed to play
With facades in shallow graves
This is not my scene
It's your thing
To be the life of every moment
While I live inside my dreams
Moments like these
Revealing the true me
Moments like these
A side you will never see
Moments like these
Revealing the true me
Moments like these
A side you will never see
11.Innocence destructing
How do I have faith
When I believe
They will turn me down
I try, I try to trust you
But you never follow through
Before I turn myself away
For you
Before I turn myself away
For you
I am not
This isolated
I am not
This shy or strange or jaded
I am innocence destructing
Turn on you to force the change
Turn myself into the victim
Of my own creation
I am disconnection central
Lost the party on my line
Too much longing in this distance
For a new form of communication
How do I have faith
When I believe
They will turn me down
I try, I try to trust you
But you never follow through
Before I turn myself away
For you
Before I turn myself away
For you
I am not
This self-defeating
It's just
A phrase I keep repeating
I am innocence destructing
Turn on you to force the change
Turn myself into the victim
Of my own creation
I am disconnection central
Lost the party on my line
Too much longing in this distance
For a new form of communication
Communication
I am innocence destructing
I am innocence destructing
How do I have faith
I am innocence destructing
I am innocence destructing
Turn on you to force the change
Turn myself into the victim
Of my own creation
I am disconnection central
Lost the party on my line
Too much longing in this distance
For a new form of communication
Communication
12.Windmills
Another time, forgetting memories
That dream my nights to day
Shadow hands that trace in circles
Feeling with no resolution
Always half a turn away
From being right here, right now
Keep spinning
And I'll stay
Out of control
Spinning and spinning
Impossible
I will only dream of you
Impossible
I will only dream of you
Missing I keep missing
I keep sleeping
I keep hating
I keep waiting
I keep needing
Without cause or reason
To be justified
Something changes
Every time I turn to you
I turn away
I turn inside
I turn into
An empty page
Just waiting
For the words
Waiting
For the worst
Spinning and spinning
Impossible
I will only dream of you
Impossible
I will only dream of you
Impossible
I will only dream of you
Impossible
I will only dream of you
I will only dream of you
I will only dream of you
Spinning and spinning
I will only dream of you
Spinning and spinning
I will only dream of you
13.Blue deluge
It was a chilly day in march
When he let me down
Just when I thought I knew
The difference of boy and man
He said his world never sleeps
From his cyclonic mind
Gone was a girl lured into his path
In the dress of a different size
With your pride alone you sailed away
And never heard me say
My heart is safe from where I'm standing
Far away from you
And if I get too close
Then I'll be
Drowning in blue
His eyes to me had red
A note of apology
He said
'I can't do this commitmentship
My soul is running on empty'
With your pride alone you sailed away
And never heard me say
My heart is safe from where I'm standing
Standing
Far away from you (Far away from you)
And if I get too close then I'll be
Drowning in blue
My heart is safe from where I'm standing
Standing
Far away from you (Far away from you)
And if I get too close then I'll be
Drowning in blue
14.City(Bitstream Dream remix)(Bitstream Dream Remix)
Memories
Are fading
You were once mine
Never unkind
A long sigh
A soft caress
Now a slience
An emptiness
I'm alone
Staring through
The past I knew
I miss you
Streets are empty
Space surrounding
Sighs soft lullabies
Blurred reflection
A passing perfection
Scarring deep inside
Need a place to hide
From the rain
The cold breeze
Brings you back to me
I smell you in the air
I'm broken beyond repair
Patience
In short supply
I can't replace you
I wouldn't want to try
I'm alone and maybe
It's what should be
Do you miss me
Isolation will repeat
I feel so incomplete
Streets are empty
Space surrounding
Sighs soft lullabies
Blurred reflection
A passing perfection
Scarring deep inside
Need a place to hide from the rain
Streets are empty
Filled with millions
Cold, with empty souls
Searching everywhere
Nothing's ever there
The night inside me grows
I disappear below
Floating higher and higher
A wonderful feeling
Everything around me became suddenly
Unreal
As if in a dream
Streets are empty
Space surrounding
Sighs soft lullabies
Blurred reflection
A passing perfection
Scarring deep inside
Need a place to hide from the rain
Streets are empty
Filled with millions
Cold, with empty souls
Searching everywhere
Nothing's ever there
The night inside me grows
I disappear below
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